Thank you for trusting my sewing skills regarding yesterday’s post! I was SO sure the belt was going to be a nightmare to make, but I was a little surprised at how relatively easy it was to put together. I didn’t think I would be able to sew the faux leather with my sewing machine and there was no way I wanted to do it by hand. I tried a very large needle on the machine and it worked great!
I’ll post photos tomorrow; I’m going to (try to) dye it darker. So I had to work and in this shortage of time, I am quite happy with it.
Anyway, every week I sound more like a broken record when I do my Wednesday weigh-ins… «I wanted a good week, I’m trying, it’s hard, blah blah blah.» And today is no different. I’ve been struggling with sugar cravings a lot, and they started a long time ago (literally right after I wrote a post about how eating sugar triggers my cravings). Once the sugar is out of my system, I feel great and it’s easy not to eat it. Getting to that point, which takes about four days, is deadly.
This week was particularly tough and I gave in and ate more Oreos than I care to admit. (It was that Reddit post I shared recently that made me think of Oreos!) I *know* I shouldn’t do that. I *know* it just makes cravings a million times worse. It’s nothing new to me… but I haven’t been able to say no!
I have avoided the scale and actually chose not to weigh myself today. I know avoiding the number isn’t going to change anything (it is what it is), but I just didn’t want to do it. My jeans feel really tight, so I know I’ve gained weight. With this size, even a few kilos are very noticeable on my clothes.
But what bothers me the most is how I feel. Even if the scale hasn’t moved, I just don’t *feel* good about the way I’ve been eating.
What am I going to do about it? She just keeps trying. I won’t buy any more Oreos; My main goal will be to get the sugar out of my system. I just want to stop wanting it, and the only way to do that is to go without it for a while. And hopefully, this time I will have learned my lesson for good. (How many times have I said that?) I had no idea how difficult it would be to stop the cycle.
My mood has been good, fortunately! I don’t eat for emotional reasons and I’m not binge eating; I’ve been craving sweets like hell. I know what the problem is and I know how to fix it…I just need the discipline to DO IT. I know it’s inside me somewhere, so now I just have to find it.
Over the past few weeks, I’ve also stopped some of the habits I was working on (although I’m still doing most of them) and I want to get back to doing them like I did before. I still run every morning and I think that has helped keep my mood stable. I have adopted a great morning routine.
Now, I’d like to incorporate the other habits into the routine with a little more planning through «habit stacking.» Habit stacking (which I learned about in the book Atomic Habits) is where you adopt the new habit just before or immediately after another established habit). I discovered that the habits I have maintained are the ones I have accumulated.
Having a routine is also very helpful with my eating habits, so I hope it helps me get through the hard parts when I crave Oreos (or other sweets).
Anyway, I promised myself a long time ago that I wouldn’t skip two weekly weigh-ins in a row, so I’ll weigh myself next week no matter what. Maybe keeping that in mind is what you need this week 😉
